Day One - Easy to start...so it seems.

So it's only 9:12 in the morning. I patted myself on the back for going and getting an herbal tea this morning instead of my regular black tea (in which I put 4 sugar packets and 1/2 and 1/2). Instead, I got a cinnamon herbal tea with skim milk and 2 packets of the brown cane sugar. Not the usual taste, but I will MAKE myself get used to it. So far I've eaten a hardy portion of oatmeal (the 3/4 cup instead of the 1/2 cup), with 2 tbsp. fat free 1/2 and 1/2, 2 tsp. of sugar and cinnamon. Eventually I'd like to nix the sugar but that will take time.

I've planned out my lunch AND dinner for today...which is another thing I commend myself for. But the real test will be around 2pm today, when my craving for crap kicks in. Later in the day is my worst time, but it's only day one, how bad could it possibly be? We shall see.

I will post later in the day today, to let you know just how good I've been *lol*. Hope all of you are doing well!!! I'm so happy I'm starting to get some followers, it makes my posts seem all the more worth it:)

The Dawn of a New Day...

Hi everyone:) So, tomorrow I re-start Weight Watchers again...well, technically I never stopped...I mean, I signed up for a few months at a time but I did stop following the program due to some major stressors in my life. I am now, at least I hope, back on track. I am hoping that my life is going to calm down a bit, especially with the holidays coming around. I've already started my Christmas shopping...can you believe it? I wanted to get a head start this year as the last 2 years I've been pregnant and all everyone got was gift cards. I'm being more creative this year:)

So, lets talk holidays...only because they are my absolute favorite. And I'm sure you all know why holidays are my favorite...can you guess? BECAUSE THERE'S FOOD INVOLVED *lol*. BUT, this year we won't really be celebrating majorly with food because my step children will be with their mother on Thanksgiving and CHristmas Day and my older son will be with his father...so.....that just leaves me and my husband and the two little ones (who really don't eat much). I'm sure I'll make a small turkey but I'm going to try to make some healthy side dishes for just my husband and I...I can't wait! An intimate Thanksgiving this year!!! I really do love the holidays. I also love the Fall. My favorite season. Though I hate the thought of it getting cold, I just love watching the leaves turn.

Okay, back to food *lol*....I wil be collecting some food recipes for the holidays and am hoping some of you could "donate" a few good recipes. My body is just so out of wack with eating crappy food that I can't wait to start eating well again. Well, the buck stops here. I officially start TOMORROW. Okay, I've said it. Tomorrow is it. Look, yet again, for my stats tomorrow and from then on in, my weekly weigh ins. Everyone have an awesome night and I'll blog again tomorrow!!

Obstacles...

Hi everyone. Just wanted to say I'm sorry for not blogging lately. I've had a lot happen in the past few weeks and just cannot focus on everything at once. I am happy to say that I will be returning to Weight Watchers on Wednesday. I will keep you informed:)

I will try and bring you up to date tomorrow on what's been happening in my life. Thanks for reading!!

I just wanted to post one more time before the weekend due to the excitement I feel about blogging my progress. It's almost 5pm and I actually didn't do that bad with regards to eating today. I will be much more prepared next week in terms of bringing my lunch and planning out my days. I feel this is the beginning to something big *lol*....maybe, possibly, BIG weight loss. And I owe all of this to my best friend (I'll keep her name private) who's 30+ pound weight loss is a large part of my inspiration and new friend, Tammy, who also has a blog. Thank you, thank you both for getting my butt in gear to do this:)

Day Two - My Official Starting Point

Hi Everyone:) So, I took my weight this morning, not a pretty thing but I've listed it as Weigh I #1 on the side. I guess it could be worse. This time I feel like I can do this...beat this food demon I've dealt with for so many years (and hid so no one would know). I will try to update my blog daily, however weekend will be tough because of my babies. I literally have no time to be on the computer on Saturdays and Sundays so I will do my best.

I'm not really sure what to talk about in a blog because this is the first one I've ever had. I guess, a little more about myself, I'm married to an awesome guy named Doug. He is really very supportive of everything I do in life amidst having his own health and family issues to deal with. He's is great with our kids. About the kids....I have one 13 year old from a previous relationship and 2 children with my husband (they are 2 and 7 months). My husband has 4 children from a previous marriage, 1 girl, age 16; and 3 boys, ages (and I'm guessing on this one) 22, 20 and 18. We don't see his children much, just his daughter every other weekend. I feel for my husband because she is pulling away, as she should at this age. She just got a boyfriend...currently the love of her life....and spends a lot of time with him. I see the jealousy in my husband. I'm sure it will come my way when my son starts dating. He is very secretive right now with his personal life. He spends a lot of time in his room, door shut, either on his laptop or cell phone conversing with God knows who. He is a great kid though, all things put aside. There are so many worse things he could be doing in his life. He does have his times, but for the most part he's great. My two babies are wonderful as well. My 2 year old is definately testing the waters but I'm sure he'll outgrow his tantrums (at least I hope he does). My 7 month old is just the happiest baby, all the time. I will try to post pictures of them shortly. I'm still finding out all the ins and outs of how to create my blog site.

So, in terms of weight loss, I'm really shooting for 2 pounds a week and faithfully exercising at least 3 or 4 times a week. The exercise in itself will be a chore because, after working full time, coming home and taking care of everyone, that doesn't leave an aweful lot of time for me. If I want to exercise it has to be around 9:10 or 10 at night. I'm already up at least 2-3 times at night with my littlest one so getting up any earlier than I have to (6 am) is out of the question (unless I want to be a zombie at work). I would love to go back to Weight Watchers as well. I have been going to Wednesday afternoon meetings because they are a few blocks away from me at work. I haven't been able to go the past 3 weeks though because I had a death in my family one week and the other 2 weeks one or all of the kids were sick. So next week I will try to hit a meeting. I will weigh in every Friday to let you guys know my progress.

Thanks so much for following along. And in advance, I apologize if anything I say may offend anyone...my blog is not ment to offend anyone at all. Sometimes my mouth just gets carried away. I will choose what I write wisely (at least I'll try). Everyone have a great day and hopefully I'll follow up tomorrow:)

Truly the Beginning...

So, now's a good a time as any to begin my journey. The first of October, fall is here...my feelings of wanting to feel good and look good are stronger than ever; however, my obsession with food has always seemed to get in the way. It was suggested to me to create this blog as a way of tracking my progress and gaining incentive to lose the weight I need to. A little about me...I guess some of you may read this and laugh but in reality, I have 40 pounds to lose. Doesn't sound like a lot however it's more than the 40 pounds. It's being able to triumph over food. Being able to say no and not go back and change my mind seconds later. Addiction is a big problem in my family. My father is a compulsive gambler and my older/younger brother, a drug addict. Initially I was happy that I escaped what they have to endure...but now that I take a step back, I realize that here I am, not totally escaping addiction...why, I'm just addicted to a different thing...FOOD. People don't see ADDICTION to food a problem. Some just feel you can stop eating at any point in time...diet, lose the weight. You're just lacking in motivation. I've heard it all, from everyone. When I started hiding my eating I knew I had a problem.

Tomorrow I will truly start...by posting my stats...uuuggghhhh, that's going to be fun. So, stay tuned for by beginning stats and join in this incredible journey with me.